AJGRL.
AIM - shaaatapjgrl
TWEEET - ayeitsjgrl
damn.
ive always known things were possible but not like this. there could be alot weighing down on me right now, but im not gna let it. who knew how fast things can change? damn i am so blessed. and everyone should recognize all tha things they can appreciate when things arent goen so well. im ona damn journey wit many challenges ta come &im ready for it. BRING. IT. ON. >;)
rant - i cant stand this shit no more.
what tha fuckery is goen wrong wit tha world. i have so much bottled up anger. im hla glad i have karate class tmo. i cant believe you. how tha fuck does this happen. i suddenly dont even matter anymore and you &tha bitch are close now. pulling mself outta this circle of people. i cant handle tolerating and being hurt all tha fucken time no more. i hate being left out &shit. ta believe i thot these kind of people were my real friends. i got shit twisted, yall doen ya thang togetha and who tha fuck hits me up anymore? no one. it fucken hurts, but now i know who rly even gives a fuck abt me. thanks to those who stl appreciate my existence. my anger makes me an ugly ass person. aint none of you understand where tha fuck i come from. fuck you all, you dont deserve me inya fucken lives. i hope erybody happy now &thanks for showen ya true colors :) late.
dear joyce. i just wanted ta say thank you. for being you. and me feeling comfortable enough ta just be me without feelen ashamed arnd you. lately its been hard. i gta admit, im taken on alot but it will all be worth it. i am blessed wit erything in ma life. even all that shit that rly hurts me, my life is stl good. thanks for being there. no joke cous. i havent rly had anyone lately. ya mama too. im so thankful ta know there is stl people who care for me. but lately, i just been feelen hla happy er excited ta be arnd you er see you cos i feel so freee from all my stress. i love you cous, and i am tooo damn blessed ta have you in ma life. ive been looken fwd ta some of ma lonely days bcos of you :)
playen wit tha instagram! it tooook 3 people ta help my dumb asss wit this. hitech iphone’s just aint fa me. hahaha. thanks sonny emily &lastly, baby joanne. good night!
SSI.
damn. if there’s one thing I gta say. I am too thankful to stl have you arnd and hla glad we pulled to be just cooo ass friends &strictly that. I’MA SURVIVOR. bwahahah, and even betta to know you stl arnd even tho we aint like supa tighttight no more. my ugly awkward batch tho <3
blah.
been tired as shit. falling aslp on tha bus, in class, just erywhere. sometimes I just fall aslp eating. hahaha, kenya’ believe that? I been busy as hell and honestly, I just wna sit back relax and laugh. not that I don’t do that alrdy but I kinnna just wna.. go away forawhile, you know? away from drama. away from friends er people who don’t rly even need me. away from my busted asss calendar /planner. just away. away away, to relax. well, gna head out to MHS sooon tho, cos it’s ma baby’s bday today!!! :D HAPPPPPPY BDAY NANCY MARIA NGUYEN <33333 SEE YOU SOOON BOOO! aightlate.
Flaws &All: How my family karaokes
First, at the beginning of the song, we’re just sitting down like
And then we slowly start getting into it like
And then the song progresses and the chorus comes up so we stand up so we’re like
Then our favorite part of the song comes up and we’re like
By then we start…
SHE SAID IT ALLLL!!! :DDDDD. bwahahaha, kareoke anyone? I love ma fam maaaan.
:)
ma week beeen full as fuck, but satisfying tooo. tha past like.. month, I been do’en so much ta work on just mself and what I can do for a ‘better, but also real’ place to surround mself wit. there are alot of things I can’t change (which I’m ok wit), but I’m learning how to work arnd it and be hla open -minded &take chances. I simply LOVE it. lately, I been taking advantage of my 3 month bus passs. it’s been making me busy as hell and consumes so much time tryna get from point a to point b, er even C - D - E, etc. but, tha experience itself has helped me alot wit ma patience &character. walking everywhere, running, dancing, singing just erything when I’m alone. I rmbr when I used to be alone, I was miserable as fuck. but now, I enjoy tha time alone &worken on mself. it’s quite a journey, but I enjoy it. I learned that to get where I wna be, I rly do have to practice &work hard. and eventually, as time goes by, I will get there. I like earning my way to tha top er my destination, bcos real talk, tha things that are deserved don’t come easy, they are tha one’s that you earn through time &struggle. I love being humble abt shit tooo &learning something good &bad abt mself everyday. grace told me once that it’s good to have rooom for growth, and since then, I’ve been making a building of rooms for growth &change. neva ta stop competing wit mself and tha change that I’ve gone through simply AMAZES me. even tho I am now restless, busy &depend on my phone calendar /planner to remind me for things, I do not regret one second of all this time spent on ma past &coming days. strictly do’en me &LOVE IT - AAAYEEE. :D
PS - thank you everyone who has been a part of my life lately. from friends, to teachers, to classmates, to eryone &even meeeting random ass people on tha streets (LOL). esp my fam &joanne. thaaaaanks! :D gna bus out to tahitian prac soon tho! YEEEE - halloweeen tmo, *barely noticed til now. LATE!
and to rly think.
you was worth it. anyway. I been haven like tha best yet lightweight a hla bad wk. but, tha goood times been overshadowing all tha bad. there are stl some people that I wish I never met, but then again, I look back at it and rly, they left me some good asss memories to look back on, it’s just tha way things ended and shit that rly has me go’en like - wtf. and when I think of those times, it makes me realize why we don’t talk no more. er kick it. cos things just got hla bad.
- honestly, if you’re fucken annoyed wit me, just tell me. I can tell, but I don’t wna go on assuming cos thas gna lead to somethan else. you don’t nda talk ta me. you don’t nda act like you fucken miss me tho either. this and that. nigga don’t get me started, I’m not tha only one to blame here.
- damn, I love joanne. she been tha highlight of ma whole wk. plus seeeing old faces too :) talk abt, blast to tha past. I had a great time comen in and out to SV.
- homework, social life &slp - a fuck you big time. erytime I have hw, I looose slp. when I have a social life, I get no hw done. when I slp, I don’t have time fa hw and I don’t talk to anyone. and even when I put alla that together, I am busy as fuck, finding mself tryna find some time to slp and just sit tha fuck down ta relax. simple as that. I got this idea from this one quote on twitter, but it’s so relevant and makes hla sense. POWER TA THA TRUTH. regardless of tha ‘truth’ tho, I’m enjoyen it.
- single as fuck - I have been thinken so much abt relationships, being single &my life. it’s been good tho. tha time alone. I kinna wna have someone there, but when I think abt it, I rly don’t. bcos, I have a life of my own at which I’m worken on and am busy wit. and at fhs’ homecoming yesterday tooo, I hear and seen hla couples fighting. honestly, a dance aint somewhere you wna bring your girl er boy, any thirsty nigga can swoop and try ta grind on watcha call yours. I noticed at tha dance, I didn’t feel comfortable dancing wit other guys so, I was pretty much gettten it by mself and wit tha girls. hahah, I might actually call mself lesbian for once. but I’m stl not sure of a ‘label’ so I’m not gna put anything on me til I am. anyway, I’ve realized that I am down as fuck fa someone and I will hold it down, but it seems like erytime I do, no one wants to take it. so I’m sayen fuck it, I’m sick of being hurt. I am officially, SINGLE AS FUCK &content wit it :)
